Shifting Impulse: A BBW Bear-Shifter Romance (Complete Edition - Books 1-3) Read online

  Set on making his business grow, he came home late, went on business trips every month or so, and then one night he just went ballistic when he decided he hated the dinner she hadso lovingly prepared for him. That had been the last time she saw him. The bastard never came for his things and never called. It had been so difficult for her to climb out of the hole she found herself in for months and only Janet had been there for her. She loved Janet so much! If not for her best friend, she would have been in that dark place for much longer. Years maybe and she didn’t want to relive that, so she avoided men as much as possible. She hoped she could avoid this one after tonight too. Universe, I have learned my lesson!

  “Shit! You look so hot right now, woman!” Ryan whispered as he leaned onto the doorframe.

  “You startled me! Don’t creep on me like that!” she screamed as she covered her chest with her right hand.

  “You need to eat and I need to eat you, so let’s get going before I change my mind about the order of those two things.”

  Yeah, baby. Let’s enjoy tonight because that’s all you’re getting. I’m gone in the morning. I know what you businesspeople do and I want no part in it.

  ***

  “I’m so glad you’re here,” Ryan said as he took a bite of the double-steak he got for himself.

  Celine smiled. He had no clue it was because of her evil plan. But enough of the stupid plan. She needed to have fun tonight, then give him a taste of his own medicine. Or her ex’s medicine. Whatever. She had tonight.

  After taking a few bites of the steak and pea stew he had brought from the restaurant, Celine stopped eating. She let the fork slip from her fingers. “I just can’t believe you convinced me to come up here and the minute I get out of the car, we bump into a wild animal. I am going to never get out of this state of panic, Ryan!” she complained as he grinned at her. Her stomach growled.

  He moved closer to her and touched her hand over the table. “I’m going to take care of that. Dinner first and I’ll lick all that anxiety off your gorgeous body. You won’t even remember why you panicked in the first place.” He returned to his steak.

  She had to admit he was good with words. So good it turned her nipples hard. Just processing the words made her a bit wetter than before.“I’m sure you make that kind of promise to many women,” she said on harsher tone. She knew he was a player. Men this good-looking always were.

  Ryan let out a sign to calm himself. This woman drove him to his limit. At least she kept the bear content. Before frustration got the best of him, he decided to change the subject, knowing no words were enough to convince her he had been single for almost two year now and before he met her he had planned to stay single for quite some time.

  “Why are you afraid of being up here, Celine?”

  She just stared at him. She didn’t want to answer. It would just come out as a stupid line and he would just laugh. She stopped telling this story to people because they just laughed and told her she should grow out of it.

  All she said was “You’ll laugh and it’s embarrassing so I’m not telling you this story.”

  He wanted to laugh but decided it was against his own good. It wasn’t funny if it made her have a panic attack.“Whatever it is, it’s serious, baby, and I won’t laugh. You know I’m here and I can protect you. You know that, don’t you?”

  She wanted to believe him mainly because she had never felt this safe in the presence of a man. That was her heart speaking. Her brain had a different agenda going on.

  “Thank you for my birthday present,” she smiled in the most seductive way possible. She had to do something to get him between her legs.

  He took a sip of the dry white wine. He kept it in the fridge for special times. This was one of them, for sure. “Don’t thank me yet, beautiful. The best part is yet to come. You coming for me as many times as possible to be more precise,” he said as he leaned and kissed her. He brushed his fingers on her cheek with his left hand, while he pulled her head closer with his other hand. The kiss was so hot Celine felt electricity spark between them. What the kiss and his touch did to all the skin on her body! It was almost mind-blowing how this man kissed her. She almost forgot all about her plan to leave his sorry ass in the morning. Just a bite of her lip and she let go of all the control she held on herself.

  “I want you,” she whispered, suddenly out of breath.

  He took her hand and helped her stand. Her mere presence did more things to both his human and bear side than he cared to acknowledge. It was best not to think about the implications of branding her body with his scent and seed. Not tonight anyway. There was time to think about it tomorrow or sometime in the future anyway. His mind couldn’t process anything but how turned on he was.

  ***

  What Celine didn’t expect was to end up on the table, her legs wound around his hips. He had been sensible enough not to clear the table with one hand and smash everything on the table. Instead he kissed his way to the other side of the table, Celine straddling him as hard as she could. She had been afraid of him dropping her, but the man’s bulging muscles tensed and she had no doubt he could carry her. The way he confidently walked as if he was holding a baby, made her relax. His boner was a whole different story. The friction made her even wetter than before.

  His kisses demanded full cooperation. Her moans encouraged him to pull her sweater over her head. He wasn’t very happy to separate their lips and showed that with a growl, but he had to get her naked. He couldn’t take it any longer. With one swift movement, his own t-shirt ended up on the floor. She gasped at the sight of his flexing six-pack, his bulging shoulder muscles and biceps.

  “Like what you see, sugar?”

  She was leaning on the table, supporting her body weight with her hands. Instead of answering, Celine just licked and bit her lower lip and held out her right hand to touch him. “Just get over here, sexy,” she said as she pulled him closer and spread her legs. Their lips met again and he took both her breasts in his massive hands. He squeezed and fondled them and she knew he was smiling even though her eyes were shut. His face muscles moved and the sounds coming from his throat made her think of an excited child who had just received his best Christmas present.

  Their hands worked in a complete frenzy to undress the other. Once all the clothes were on the floor, Ryan dropped to his knees. The way the swollen, red tip of his boner looked made her nipples harden even more. “What are you doing, Ryan?” she asked even though she knew his answer. Her pussy was excited to get some action.

  “You’re so wet for me, baby,” he said as he slipped two fingers into her slick folds. Feeling his fingers inside of her filled her with excitement she never thought she was capable of feeling. He pumped her a few times and then stopped. Disappointment rushed over her, but in less than two seconds it was replaced by embarrassment at the sight of him licking his fingers clean. His nostrils flared and the next thing he said took her completely by surprise.

  Her face turned so red. Ryan could see how embarrassed she was about what he had just done. “There’s no reason for you to be embarrassed. Going down on a woman, especially one as delicious as you, is one of my favorite activities. I’m going to worship you.”

  She didn’t know what to say, but worshipping wasn’t even in her vocabulary. It was one she didn’t mind adding.

  She smelled and tasted fertile. She was ready for him and his bear groaned with satisfaction that he would soon plant his seed in her womb. The sound of a baby crying filled his mind. His bear had done this on purpose. He clung to his human mind and instincts as long as he could, but he felt he was losing the fight. His bear was subtly fighting him for control over his mate. He realized she would go running if he mentioned cubs to her right now. There was time for this conversation tomorrow. “It’s your needy time too, baby,” he said, keeping it as vague as he could.

  Celine didn’t quite get the full implications of what he said. She was needy for sure. She hadn’t been with a man in years and her la
dy parts had been neglected for so long and were just waking up.

  “I’ve never had this done to me,” she looked even more embarrassed as she said the words.

  He couldn’t believe what he had just heard, but he planned on changing that. He had already given her a taste of the orgasms that were possible just from eating her pussy. The amount of orgasms would increase. He would make sure of that.

  She gasped as his tongue came into contact with her pussy lips.

  She couldn’t take her eyes off his head buried between her legs. He spread her legs even more and licked his way to making her come. She couldn’t keep her eyes open any longer, the lust was too much to take. She rocked her hips and caged his head with her fingers. His long hair was so soft. How could a man with long hair and a ponytail turn her on like this?

  Before she got a chance to think about that answer, she felt the storm in her stomach getting ready to hit. His tongue was circling her clit and he pumped her with two fingers, determined to bathe her in pleasure.

  “Come for me, baby. You know you love it when I lick you clean,” he breathed. He sucked her clit and she felt the tension building there, too fast for her to realize what was happening. Then he bit her clit and man did he bite hard. So hard she cried with ecstasy. She didn’t cry his name, to his disappointment, but she did look like she was floating in pleasure.

  That was his undoing, he couldn’t take it much longer and she hadn’t even touched his cock. Not being inside her made his erection painful. He stood, grabbed his jeans and retrieved the condom from the one of the back pockets. “Careful” might as well be his middle name when it came to protection during sex.

  He rolled the condom on his now swollen shaft and snaked an arm on her back, pulled her closer, positioned himself at her entrance and in one swift movement he was inside of her. There was no barrier between them other than the condom, she was so slick that his cock just glided inside, filling her completely. It was so warm inside her still pulsing pussy and he it drove him crazy with need. He felt his human side slipping and the bear taking over.

  She opened her eyes and seemed surprised to find him so close and his cock inside her. Her face was flushed and he leaned closer for a complete union. He glued his lips to hers and started thrusting into her with abandonment. Her moans were like a lullaby to his ears. How could this woman sound so hypnotic to him when no other woman had?

  The bear in him spoke right then, answering his silent question. “You’re mine, baby. All mine,” he whispered.

  Celine heard him saying “mine” but it was just a whisper and it was so far away that she thought she must have imagined it. The man was doing things to her that made her brain log off. She was just a puddle of sensations. No thinking, just feeling. All she was aware of made her feel wanted, safe, protected and in ecstasy. She had never felt that way with her ex. She never thought that was even possible. She wanted to enjoy it as long as she could.

  “Say it!” he grunted through clenched teeth. She looked at him and barely recognized the expression on his face. It was so wild and uninhibited. She had made him go there; to that place in his head he maybe never dared to go. It was all her. That did things to her confidence. “Say what?” she breathed.

  “That you are mine. Only mine,” he growled.

  “Yours,” she repeated without thinking twice. She would do whatever made him go on.

  He pumped her even harder and the growls and grunts coming from his throat almost sent her over the edge. She wasn’t going to last long if he kept it up like this. Her core started trembling and it spread to her hips and her legs. Feeling her this close drew something that sounded like a roar from him and the vibration spread until it reached his cock. His body jerked and he roared again, this time his abdomen flexing and hot liquid burst so close to her womb. Just the idea of him spilling himself inside of her let the dam that kept her orgasm captive break free and she was bathed in waves of releasing tension.

  She felt like she was drowning in this pleasure she had never felt before. It suffocated her and him sucking her nipples only brought her back to the surface for much needed air.

  It had been like a dream. She didn’t know if it was real until she opened her eyes and saw his long dark hair, now damp with sweat, stuck to her chest while he held her close and tugged, licked and fondled her breasts.

  Her lower back and ass hurt like hell and she couldn’t feel her legs. All she wanted was to cuddle in a soft bed and sleep. The only problem was he was still inside of her, his shaft engorging again.

  She moaned and he froze. “Ryan, you’re still hard. How’s that even possible?” she whispered.

  That was when he slowly lifted his head, separating her breasts from the warm contact of his lips and tongue. His face was all wet, but she didn’t recognize the look in his eyes. It was as if the warm, cocky Ryan she had come to know had just left the body and had been replaced by a wild animal. It was a bit scary, but she liked seeing this side of him that probably he didn’t show to other people. She could only hope that this wasn’t his normal sex face. Dream on, Celine.

  He didn’t say anything. He just looked into her eyes and lifted her off the table. Still inside her, he headed for the bedroom. She hugged his neck, clinging to him for dear life. He was mumbling something to her, but she didn’t understand what he was saying. His voice was shaky and deeper. The man had some stamina and some real muscles if he could just carry her up the stairs like she didn’t weigh anything.

  Despite how tired she was, she wasn’t going to say no to another round of steaming hot sex that left her feeling so high she didn’t even know her own name.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  Oh, boy, the night had been hot. Too hot to handle to be more precise. It was almost morning. The sun was just coming up and the room was filled with balmy orange light. Celine was so tired she couldn’t even move a finger. The only thing she could do was stare at the ceiling. She had no willpower to hang on to. What she thought would be just one more round of sex, had turned into an all night fucking marathon. This man’s lust was insatiable. How the hell he could just go on and on, she had no idea. She didn’t mind it though. It hurt, obviously. Everything hurt, all her body parts were in serious need of a hot bath and a massage and a week’s worth of sleep. That didn’t bother her as much though. What kept her awake was how disturbing her wild side was. She had ridden him like she a wildcat. What was wrong with her? She was so embarrassed. She hoped he didn’t bring it up. Like never.

  The last time he took her had just ended almost fifteen minutes ago by her estimates. He looked really tired and was now using her boobs as a pillow. One of them, anyway. He was caressing the other and he was humming. As strange as it was, it felt so soothing. She didn’t want him to fall asleep and stop making that noise, so she kept playing with his hair. It sounded like a lullaby.

  Ryan’s bear was satisfied and it disappeared somewhere at the back of his head. The human side of him was a mess. He loathed himself for being so weak and losing the battle over his body. He had fucked her without a condom more times than he was willing to acknowledge and that meant only one thing. She might be pregnant very soon. Why hadn’t she stopped him? The damage was done now. He had to deal with it somehow. He could only hope it wouldn’t blow up in his face. He had wanted to be a father for so long before that horrible night about seven years ago. He still wanted though. The problem was she was human and she had no idea he could change into a wild animal in a blink of an eye.

  “Why are you afraid of being in a forest, Celine?” he whispered.

  She didn’t want to tell him, but she was leaving in a few anyway, so it didn’t matter much if he knew or not.“You’ll laugh, but when it happened it wasn’t funny and it left me quite shaken.”

  “I won’t laugh, baby. You can tell me,” he said on a very serious tone.

  The way he called her “baby” gave her goose bumps. She liked it and it turned her on way too much than she was willing to admit. The man had
his way with words. And orgasms. And he was so caring. Her heart was already envisioning a future for them. STOP! This can’t go on. Be realistic.

  She continued caressing his hair. “When I was fourteen, I went on a hiking trip with my parents and my brother. I had begged them to go all summer and at the end of August they finally decided to indulge me and go. I was so excited to be in the forest that I didn’t realize we got separated and I got lost for two days. I was so scared I was going to die there when nobody found me and I had to spend the second night all alone in the forest. I bumped into some mountaineers the next morning and they took me home. I was starved and dehydrated, but happy to be going home,” she said with a sniff. Remembering all this and sharing it with a guy was painful and it brought up all the feelings she had kept bottled up inside her.

  He got up and took her in his arms. “Sshh… It’s okay to cry, baby,” he cooed. He caressed her hair and kissed her forehead as she cried uncontrollably. That went on for some time until she calmed down. She felt much more peaceful now that she got that boulder off her chest. She lifted her head and looked into his eyes. “I’m sorry you had to witness that. I don’t usually do that.”

  “There’s no need to apologize. We are only human, we feel things and they’re not always positive ones. Not everything is pink butterflies and flowers,” he said in his persuasive voice.

  “Yeah, I guess you’re right. The thing that really hurt me the most wasn’t that I got lost and almost died in the forest, though. My parents’ attitude when I got home shocked me. They had thought I was dead so when they saw me, instead of being relieved I was home safe and sound, they just said I was stupid and childish and I couldn’t be trusted to make my own decisions. I was grounded for a long time and that led to other things. They still don’t trust and see me as a grown woman. I’m twenty-eight.”